The best thing about this week was yesterday’s hike. It felt more like a climb, but it was worth it when you got to the top and saw the views over Mexico City. The place is called Pico del Aguila.
At the top we saw (or at least I think it is) the Popocatepetl volcano. It erupted this summer and some smoke was coming out of it…
Everytime I’m out hiking I’m reminded how much I love it. Need to make an effort and remind myself to plan more adventures in nature!
Looked like a big chicken at the gym the other day. I like colors 🙂
This week’s shoots… Felt right at home shooting in a sauna 🙂
I participated in two different Zoom meetings that talked about psychedelics. Key topics were how we can involve and respect the traditions of indigenous people who have a lot of knowledge about different plant medicines. Very interesting.
I love glasses and fun frames. I bought these two which I think are cool 🙂
Called the veterinarian over this week for Hunter. He had some wet stuff by his butt and thought maybe he has a wound or something. Hunter was not very accommodating when I tried to lift his tail and research his butt so it was better to have the vet do it. This veterinarian is amazing and so kind. He took Hunter with him and shaved his empty nutsack and around the butt. But everything was fine. Apparently just some discharge that was all normal. So Hunter is chilling and nothing wrong with him. Which just reminded me that I adopted him from the woods almost a year ago 🙂
Saw my friend Dyana and catched up.
I’ll leave you with this great quote by Maria Sabina!
“Be smarter every day by listening to your intuition, looking at the world with your forehead. Jump, dance, sing, so that you live happier. Heal yourself, with beautiful love and always remember…You are the medicine.”
Soooo, on Wednesday it was my birthday 🙂 Decided I wanted to go to one of my favorite spots here in Mexico City: Boxque Teva. It’s only about 45 min from the city and in the woods. I’ve written about this place before, and if you come to the city and need to clear your head, come here!
Before leaving, I’m always making sure Hunter is taken care of. Julieta is Hunter’s extra mom and she knows only the best is good enough for Hunter. Ancestral ground beef mixed with liver and other healthy stuff. Cat food is below him. Or at least he thinks so and looks offended when I feed a can to him hahahaaa…
Here are some pics from Boxque Teva… Went with a friend and we had the whole place to ourselves.
I wanted to take some time and reflect on the year that has been and reset for the one to come. What better way than to have nature’s own medicine to help you – magical mushrooms. I like the image in the window too, it’s like the photo is saying “Mushrooms, please show me the way…”
Settled in at a clearing and let my mind go wherever it needed to go…
It got a bit cold later and moved in to the main room with a fire pit…
The people that worked then prepped dinner. Ate, listened to music and later rain and thunder…
Slept like a baby. Had a relaxing morning and then breakfast in the sun…
Found these cards with wisdom and this one is so accurate for me…
Took some picture because the Psychonaut Explorer clothes just fit perfectly here 🙂
Got some presents from my second home here in Mexico, Bold & Bowl the hair salon. Angel also thought I deserved getting my hair done with some wine 🙂
I’ve really gotten into baking. Well, pizza might not be strictly baking. I also attempted Paleo bagels. You can see how they look in the book. Mine look like torn up b*ttholes! But they tasted decent 🙂
Hunter, always close by and sometimes we’re holding hands…
In case you need more of me…
Had a coffee with my fellow Finn, Milla, here in Mexico and she had her birthday yesterday. She got me these beautiful flowers 🙂
Remember, enough is enough! Until next week friends 🙂
This is my 4th week eating pretty much paleo. My biggest goal has been to stop eating refined sugars, candy and chips. I do crave treats though, so I’ve been baking. It’s kind of relaxing and then you get to feast! I could finish the dough alone and not even bake them hahhaaaa…
Tried a new photographer/videographer this week and we shot some super cool stuff. Got plans for some more creative psychedelic-like shoots, and I think we’ll be creating some amazeballs things together 🙂 Only got these so far…
Then Ximena shot my weekly naughty content 🙂 Do you believe in psychics? I know this psychic lady in LA that I’ve seen a couple of times and it’s crazy how accurate she is. I’ll write about it another time and tell you 🙂
Making a new mushroom jacket 🙂
Finally had to succumb and go see Angel to cut my hair. It looked like it had been electrocuted while a lawnmower ran over the ends.
Went back the next day and sorted out a manicure and pedicure…
Lunch with Sanna who is a Swedish chica living here in Mexico too. She is a really good artist and we discussed if she should paint me.
Another day, another microdose…
I borrowed a projector from a friend for my shoot and also played some cat videos for Hunter. Just the popcorn missing…
While on the topic Hunter…
Gym and mostly me in pink…
Sent this to Masha who is almost a full Doctor now. This actually happened to me in Sweden one time when I was going in for a check-up of the ‘taco’. The doctor even gave me a mirror so I could follow along hahahhaaaa…
This week is my birthday wohoooo! I’m going to the woods overnight and also doing a small get together with some friends 🙂
Now another cappuccino and some reading. I wish you a fabulous day/night and upcoming week!
particular amazingness from this past week. Just feels like I did the same sh*t as always, the week passed, and now we’re in September 🙂 Which reminds me that my birthday is coming up September 13th wohoooo! I’ve already made plans to be in the woods and shroom hahahaa…
Gym business got taken care of. A necessity for me to feel good in my head even more so than in my body. Excess energy needs to be drained…
The usual stuff…
And siestas with Hunter because that’s just how we roll 🙂
Got a bit creative yesterday and asked to borrow my friends pool to test some stuff out. Will see how it turns out. A couple of behind the scenes pics…
Tried a new microdose and really liked it…
Also an article was published about me and Psychonaut Explorer on Canvas Rebel. Here’s the link if you want to read more – https://canvasrebel.com/meet-puma-swede/
I think that pretty much covers the week. Got a Paleo baking recipe book so I plan to bake some later today. Also planning a trip to Colombia in October, but otherwise just hanging out locally. How cool are my coffee mugs?
I did a lot of fun things 🙂 Last weekend we went to W Hotel to celebrate Dyana’s birthday. They have drag queen shows on Saturdays and they are super popular. It was really fun, especially when they rocked out with some Abba songs so I could pretend to sing along 🙂
Got inspired by a hairstyle and went to the salon to have them copy it on me 🙂
Lasted for about 4 days of shooting and workouts…
I managed to control my sugar intake for 2 weeks now. I haven’t had any refined sugars and have not eaten bread, pasta or chips. Secretly hoping there would be a huge difference on my body, but can’t say I’ve noticed any 🙁 But one can hope that I’m healthier on the inside at least…
I do get cravings so I tried baking some paleo stuff. Kind of failed by the looks of it, but it tasted really good. The blueberry muffins look black and it was supposed to be cookies, but I ended up scraping it all off the pan and it became like a crumble. I have now ordered a paleo recipe book for baking!
Don’t remember if I shared that I switched up my hair color? I get bored of my hair and the color so trying a bit of orange now 🙂
Photo shoots of the new color. I like it lot! Feels like I’m ready for fall…
I’ve been following this cool Swedish chick Maxinne on Instagram forever. About a month ago she wrote that she’s coming to Mexico City. Wrote her about meeting up. Long story short, we now have done 2 photo shoots with some other awesome chicas for a project she is doing. I love meeting new interesting people.
We also went wig shopping Downtown with her friend Vania. I wanted to buy this pink bowl that I think looked awesome, but they wouldn’t sell it to me 🙁
This past weekend my Finnish superwoman Milla was competing in a Crossfit competition here in town. Obviously put on my Suomi hockey jersey that I got from Milla and went to support. She is awesome and you could hurt yourself on her six pack!
At the drag queen show, I met this talented girl Abee La Sensacion. She sings, but she also has a cool store with shiny clothes. She had an event this weekend and me and Angel went…
And speaking of clothes, I saw some of my Psychonaut Explorer clothes on display in the store here wohoooo…
What else? I’ve been going for some physiotherapy weekly. I usually go when I have pain, but trying to go and prevent that tightness that builds up and then results in pain.
Hunter is doing great 🙂 Our favorite thing to do is napping together. I might be like 10% cat as much as I love napping…
Oh, and since he caught that bird, he’s on constant surveillance mode to catch more… So far, no success!
Then just the random pics of me and a couple of cute pets I’ve spotted when out 🙂
Got a Spanish lesson today and the gym opens late because of the competition so I’m going to work on some clothing I think 🙂 I hope you are superb and have an amazeballs week!
I had a very introspective and insightful trip on magic mushrooms when I was in San Jose del Pacifico. I wanted to find someone to take me picking mushrooms in the woods, but didn’t manage to find anyone. I was recommended a guy who provided the mushrooms and did a little ceremony. We met up in the morning at 10am. Only had a bit of coffee and some fruit before. I was with someone I know and trust, and who also enjoys psychedelics, and the three of us walked to a nearby hotel which was surrounded by beautiful nature and beautiful views. A very relaxing setting which is very important when tripping…
While walking the guide shared a bit how he got into magic mushrooms. His mom had a heart problem. They tried different medicines, but nothing helped. She starting eating magic mushrooms, and 3 years later she didn’t have any more heart issues! She gave gave him mushrooms when he was 12 years old the first time…
We settled at a spot in the forest and laid out blankets and a little ceremonial ‘altar’.
These were our mushrooms, and they had been made into a tea. Before drinking the tea we silently said our intentions for the journey. My intentions were to explore what my fears are. I decided that I would push towards the darkness if it occurs during the trip and find out what’s there…
Our guide had prepped these shrooms and he took a small dose to be in tune with us.
I usually feel the effect of psychedelics fast and I think it’s because I know to just let go and surrender to whatever is coming. Like they say, ‘mushrooms don’t give you what you want, they give you what you need’. This time was no different, and pretty quickly (I think like 20min) I saw the forest glow and flicker. I lied down and closed my eyes. I had very beautiful visuals, and a lot of thoughts and questions passed through my mind. In the beginning I was aware of the forest and where I was, but there was a time where I was just part of and flowing with the visuals.
I had some ‘darkness’ and tried to explore if there was something there that I was afraid of. As soon as I pushed toward it and allowed myself to just be in it, I came out and it was pleasurable and enjoyable.
After about 2h I sat up, had some water, and grabbed my headphones for music. I saw that my friend had left his spot and I will share what happened to him in the end. I lied back down and looked at the trees as the sun was peeking through and hitting my face. I cried and had an overwhelming feeling of gratitude. Whatever built-up in my body was released. I got up and went to look at the view and cried a bit more. It wasn’t really out of sadness, but a lot of people I care about passed through my mind…
After about 4 hours the guide and I walked up to this look-out spot. He went to look for my friend. I sat here alone and just took it all in. Also found this note someone had attached and it resonated with me right there…
At this spot and moment it was me at my purest form. Everything peeled off, just empty and breathing. I realized that when I leave this spot different layers of ‘reality’ will be added on top of me. Being among people, work, social media, friends, your daily must do’s and routines… I promised myself that I would try to return to this spot in my mind if I ever need some peace and quiet internally…
The guide came back and said he wasn’t able to find my friend. I wasn’t really worried since I know he is experienced with psychedelics. But still, wanted to make sure he hadn’t fallen or hurt himself in some other way. We asked the reception at the hotel, and they hadn’t seen him. We walked back to where I was staying and asked the reception there, but no sign of him. I got my wifi back and my phone rang. Long story short, my friend walked off and felt he needed to go pee and escape the mosquitos for a bit. He walked by a cabana and just went inside. No one was there so he peed and fell asleep on the bed. He woke up and realised what happened and emerged back to reality LOL…
I like the calm I feel after a strong trip. I sat outdoors and listened to music and danced, thinking about what I saw and felt during the trip.
Still haven’t figured out why I sometimes feel fear. It’s more a feeling and not really related to anything real. Just like stress, it’s usually my mind creating scenarios and there’s not really any real reason to feel stressed.
This was an amazing trip and by night I had the fireplace lit and watched old music videos from the 80’s and 90’s 🙂
I’ve had a fun week and last night ended at W Hotel with a drag show 🙂 Will try to write during the week, but no promises 😉
Wow, what a trip. Oaxaca City is truly as amazing as everyone says. I visited Puerto Escondido earlier this year which is part of the Oaxaca state that I also loved. The best part is that it is only about an hour flight from Mexico City.
Arrived and checked in at Pug Seal Hotel that a friend had recommended. Very cool design, artsy and it’s in the middle of everything…
No time to waste and being hungry, I picked a restaurant from a list that another friend of mine had compiled with recommendations for Oaxaca. Went to Casa Oaxaca and yum yum yum, everything was delicious. Especially the lobster 🙂 I also like that they prepare the guacamole and salsa in front of you and ask how picante you want your salsa to be.
Also necessary to get the caffeine fix. Kiyo Cafe was my spot and they also had a little store with locally made stuff…
The town is beautiful and colorful. Little specialty shops, cafes, and lots of bars and restaurants.
I love mezcal and tried some drinks at Sabina Sabe. Muy bueno!
Called it a night after that…
Next day I had breakfast at the hotel. Oh, and since I’m a bit restless at times and can’t just sit and do nothing, I thought – why not swing a little before breakfast arrives…
Next door to the hotel they had this supercool shop called Peyote People. They have art inspired by peyote and made by locals. I have tried a bit of peyote and I will hopefully get to participate in a full ceremony with it soon…
Then picked up a rental car and the destination was the mushroom town San Jose del Pacifico. The town is known for magic mushrooms and I think Vice made a show about this town once…
Checked in at Casa Elba. Supercute place with different style cabanas surrounded by nature.
It was walking distance to town which is very small and charming.
Decided on an early dinner at an Asian restaurant called Tatsu. It was a bit further up from town and the view and sunset from there was beautiful! Spicy and good food too.
Breakfast at the hotel with the company of these 2 pugs that lived there 🙂
Needed more coffee and walked to town. It’s pretty cool because pretty much all of the time you are above the clouds.
The best coffee shop is Oaxacid. People are very friendly here and like to talk about the town, magic mushrooms and anything else you want. Met an interesting guy while drinking coffee. He said he’s been a ‘wanted’ person and came to San Jose del Pacifico and hid here. During Covid he made some controversial video and people with machetes were looking for him in town. Luckily it started raining and that was apparently a sign from the gods that he should not be harmed. Luckily everything had cooled down now and he could roam free. Very interesting conversation…
Decided to check out the next town over called San Mateo Rio Hondo. The road kept getting smaller and narrower until it pretty much was a dirt track. Arrived in town and it was pretty much one lane streets so decided to park, walk, and see what I could find…
I was looking for a bakery, but Google maps was not very accurate here. Saw some smoke coming from a house and though there might be a bakery located there. I was right, but apparently not the bakery I was looking for. But I got to meet this great lady and her husband that baked and sold bread to stores in nearby towns/villages. They had a clay oven with a fire where they baked it all.
Headed back after about an hour and half. Found a restaurant on the way back and since I didn’t find the bakery I decided I might as well fill up with proper food instead of sugar 🙂 This guy had just picked these chanterelles and I love them. Ordered all my food with chanterelles and my favorite was this cheese with the mushrooms on top – wow!
This restaurant was by a hotel called ‘Hotel Boutique y Cabanas Alto La Sierra’. It looked nice and they were just adding more cabanas and of course they were decorated with mushroom art 🙂
When I walked into the town I spotted this sign about magic mushrooms. I decided to hike up the short little path to a small house. There was a lady hanging up laundry and I asked if she was the one selling shrooms. Yes it was and she showed me what she had…
I did a magic mushroom ceremony the next day. I will make a different post about it because it was an amazing and a very insightful trip!
At night I ate at an italian place called La Taberna Los Duendes. Like everywhere, there were designs inspired by mushrooms. The entrance, cheese plate, napkin holder etc. Food was really good and you got huge portions. I ate here after my mushroom trip as well. How cute is my mushroom hat that I bought?
The day after my shroom trip I had a relaxed morning and shopped for some mini knitted mushrooms from this lady to put on a Psychonaut Explorer jacket I’m planning to make 🙂
Then headed back to the city. It’s about an 2.5 hour drive depending on the traffic. Stopped at one of the road side markets as well. They all sell mushroom artifacts. Or actual mushrooms 🙂
One tip, if you decide to head out to San Jose del Pacifico, bring cash! Not all places accept card payments and there are no ATM’s.
Checked in at my airbnb which had a private little pool. Of course I made the most of it while there 🙂
Next up was a food tour to taste some local flavours and mezcal. Very tasty and almost drunk when finishing up hahahaaa….
Next day I met up with a group to go visit Hierve el Agua. It’s about an 1,5h drive away and it is a set of natural travertine rock formation. I thought it was hot springs, but learned it’s not. These are mineral springs and I thing the guide said the only other one exists in Turkey. Very cool!
I had spotted this awesome pottery store the day before and went there after the tour was done. I could’ve bought half the store because the stuff was amazing. It was pretty expensive and I settled for 2 mugs. This one with mushrooms and another one with a mouth and pill on the tongue. I wish it would’ve been an acid tab instead 😉
Also found this guy and he had a screenprint that reminded me of my mushroom trip so I bought it…
Changed up and went to have a semi private tasting experience at Crudo. Wow! It was sushi, but with added Oaxacan flavors. If you have to pick one place in town to eat, eat here! We were only 6 people, but they also have a restaurant where you can eat.
That pretty much concluded my Oaxaca & San Jose del Pacifico trip. I’m pretty sure I will go back as I had the best time. I can really recommend visiting here! I will write about my mushroom journey too 🙂 Here are some left over pics…
Hope you are doing great. Anyone still on vacation? Me? I’m off to ship a pair of heels someone won in an auction and then working out. Also did an interview for the Swedish newspaper Aftonbladet this morning 🙂 Oh, and I’m trying to manage my 3rd day without sugar, bread, pasta and chips. Very hard but I’m determined to make it at least a week!
I’m off to Oaxaca tomorrow so I thought that I’d caffeinate myself and get this post up today instead.
I told you I’d write about my microdose experiences, and this is a bit of a journal of the mental expedition my mind did the last few times I microdosed.
10 seeds from the flower Ipomoea Corymbosa
What would make my life perfect? Or like what is a perfect life for me. How happy am I? Where and how would I live? What would I be doing with my time? What do I enjoy doing the most now? I have been pondering on these questions since then and my conclusion (for the moment) is at the end.
When microdosing or tripping on a larger dose, my thoughts usually involve nature and how much I love being outdoors. Either in the woods or having access to a lake/ocean. I usually think that is something I need to prioritize in my life. I start thinking that I should live in the woods or on the beach. When I then start thinking on how to make it happen, it turns out that a Tarzan-like lifestyle sounds amazing, but I realize pretty quickly that I’d get bored. I obviously go to the extremes in my plans to live completely remote, self sustained etc… So where’s the middle ground in all of this?
I think about how I use my time. Sometimes I fantasize that I shouldn’t have any ‘musts’ in my life. I can just wake up and be free to do whatever I want without thinking about earning or needing money. My thoughts go to painting, photography, and reading… I realized that I do enjoy being in front of the camera and creating content though. If I did all of my hobbies, just for fun, I think I would feel unfulfilled. I need some ‘musts’ in my life to be able to enjoy doing the things that are more of a hobby.
My mind can bounce to shallow things like my looks. One minute I’m all self-loving and accept myself just as I am. But I don’t accept myself thaaaat much, that I would give up on Botox. Other times I feel that I need to do all I can to look my best and consider eyelid surgery and if it’s too late for me to get butt implants hahhaaaa…
I consider how important social media is in my life. I think I’d feel more liberated if I didn’t feel the need to take pics or have to post as much.
Things… Sometimes I imagine a life with only the necessary things that I really need. But in reality I’m a bit of a hoarder. I love things. Tacky and kitsch, shiny and bright, weird and of no use at all…
Money… How much money is enough? Is my happiness tied to money? Sometimes I feel like a minimalist and that I’m good as is. Other times I fantasize about having millions. Or even billions and plot plans how to achieve that..
For now I have come up with something that I think would be the perfect life with maxed out happiness. I would buy a farm of some kind. I would rescue animals and invite people who needed relaxation, presence of animals, and nature to come and visit. The place would also function as a psychedelic retreat for cosmic astronauts 🙂
Psilocybin
Sooo, who else is a cosmic astronaut here?
Very excited to go to Oaxaca tomorrow. Heard so much about it. In Spanish August is Agosto, but because the mushrooms grow now they call it Hongosto. My hope is to go and pick shrooms while I’m there 🙂 I just need a guide to tell which ones I can actually consume 🙂
Doesn’t feel like anything out of the ordinary happened this week. Some weeks pass and you barely notice it. Like you just got through it… I don’t like that. I like to feel like I accomplished something. I guess that’s just how it is and I need to take a chill-pill 🙂
I did 2 classes of pilates this week which was great.
Got my shooting done…
Guess I was still in Barbie mode and tried to pimp Hunter out in a wig too. He had no wish to play dress up 🙁
One of the most eventful things this week was Hunter catching a bird. I have no clue how that happened. All of a sudden he was playing with something outside the bedroom when I was reading. He was really wild so I decide I’d go and have a look. I heard cats like to bring you gifts and he seemed very proud showing off the dead birdie. After disposing of the bird and vacuuming up all the feathers, I tried to explain to him that no more gifts are necessary…
But he is so damn cute so he’s forgiven… For some reason he likes to sleep as tight by my butt as possible…
They had an event at the hair salon so I got my hair taken care of…
Spent the time brunching and walking around yesterday until it started pouring down.
I also got dry needling done again and it was as painful as last time. Got a regular massage too and that was pretty much my week. Oh, I also booked a trip to Oaxaca and I’m leaving next Sunday. This time visiting the city and also going to a small town in the mountains called San Jose del Pacifico. Very excited for this because it’s shroom season!!! So my hope is to go out in the woods there and shroom 🙂
OK, hoping for a more eventful week to come 🙂 What do you have going on? Send me some inspiration 🙂
First get the work done, and if work includes skimpy outfits, even better 🙂
Hard to get there, but always a rewarding feeling when done at the gym!
I also felt that I’ve had a tight back, so I went to see the physical therapist. It was so painful to be massaged on some spots, so he suggested dry needling. Never done it and I don’t like needles. Not very pleasant, but damn it felt good afterwards! Going back for more next week 🙂 Look at the video if you have a needle fetish 😉
My hair required some deep treatment so like always, Angel took care of it.
Right before I took off to Sweden, I went to a store close to where I live. I’ve never been there because I thought they only sold lamps. One day I decided to go in and check it out since I pass it a lot. Started to talk with the owner and she’s selling all kinds of fun stuff there. Also clothing. Long story short, I showed her my stuff and she asked me if she can have some items in her store. I gave her some jackets, tops and pants. When I got back from Sweden she texted and said she almost sold everything I gave her. Wohoooo, that’s so cool. So now I’m working on some Mexican themed jackets among other things to give her 🙂
And Hunter felt it was necessary for him to be present and ‘help’ out…
Some friends have been visiting Mexico city too. A really fun couple and their kids from Puerto Rico. On Friday us girls dressed up and went to see the ‘Barbie’ movie. So much fun 🙂
Afterwards we ended up at Chucky Cheese. I love playing their games! Apparently I don’t fit into child seats/chair or whatever they’re called anymore…
Then a late night dinner and the orange wig gave up…
And there’s always coffee and selfies…
Had dinner with Sabrina and her husband too. We are planning some fun things together 🙂 To be revealed soon…
And leftovers…
This about concludes it. Oh, microdosed a couple of times too. Will write a separate post about it because I got some interesting thoughts from it 🙂 OK, let’s see what next week brings on 🙂
