I did a lot of fun things 🙂 Last weekend we went to W Hotel to celebrate Dyana’s birthday. They have drag queen shows on Saturdays and they are super popular. It was really fun, especially when they rocked out with some Abba songs so I could pretend to sing along 🙂
Got inspired by a hairstyle and went to the salon to have them copy it on me 🙂
Lasted for about 4 days of shooting and workouts…
I managed to control my sugar intake for 2 weeks now. I haven’t had any refined sugars and have not eaten bread, pasta or chips. Secretly hoping there would be a huge difference on my body, but can’t say I’ve noticed any 🙁 But one can hope that I’m healthier on the inside at least…
I do get cravings so I tried baking some paleo stuff. Kind of failed by the looks of it, but it tasted really good. The blueberry muffins look black and it was supposed to be cookies, but I ended up scraping it all off the pan and it became like a crumble. I have now ordered a paleo recipe book for baking!
Don’t remember if I shared that I switched up my hair color? I get bored of my hair and the color so trying a bit of orange now 🙂
Photo shoots of the new color. I like it lot! Feels like I’m ready for fall…
I’ve been following this cool Swedish chick Maxinne on Instagram forever. About a month ago she wrote that she’s coming to Mexico City. Wrote her about meeting up. Long story short, we now have done 2 photo shoots with some other awesome chicas for a project she is doing. I love meeting new interesting people.
We also went wig shopping Downtown with her friend Vania. I wanted to buy this pink bowl that I think looked awesome, but they wouldn’t sell it to me 🙁
This past weekend my Finnish superwoman Milla was competing in a Crossfit competition here in town. Obviously put on my Suomi hockey jersey that I got from Milla and went to support. She is awesome and you could hurt yourself on her six pack!
At the drag queen show, I met this talented girl Abee La Sensacion. She sings, but she also has a cool store with shiny clothes. She had an event this weekend and me and Angel went…
And speaking of clothes, I saw some of my Psychonaut Explorer clothes on display in the store here wohoooo…
What else? I’ve been going for some physiotherapy weekly. I usually go when I have pain, but trying to go and prevent that tightness that builds up and then results in pain.
Hunter is doing great 🙂 Our favorite thing to do is napping together. I might be like 10% cat as much as I love napping…
Oh, and since he caught that bird, he’s on constant surveillance mode to catch more… So far, no success!
Then just the random pics of me and a couple of cute pets I’ve spotted when out 🙂
Got a Spanish lesson today and the gym opens late because of the competition so I’m going to work on some clothing I think 🙂 I hope you are superb and have an amazeballs week!
I had a very introspective and insightful trip on magic mushrooms when I was in San Jose del Pacifico. I wanted to find someone to take me picking mushrooms in the woods, but didn’t manage to find anyone. I was recommended a guy who provided the mushrooms and did a little ceremony. We met up in the morning at 10am. Only had a bit of coffee and some fruit before. I was with someone I know and trust, and who also enjoys psychedelics, and the three of us walked to a nearby hotel which was surrounded by beautiful nature and beautiful views. A very relaxing setting which is very important when tripping…
While walking the guide shared a bit how he got into magic mushrooms. His mom had a heart problem. They tried different medicines, but nothing helped. She starting eating magic mushrooms, and 3 years later she didn’t have any more heart issues! She gave gave him mushrooms when he was 12 years old the first time…
We settled at a spot in the forest and laid out blankets and a little ceremonial ‘altar’.
These were our mushrooms, and they had been made into a tea. Before drinking the tea we silently said our intentions for the journey. My intentions were to explore what my fears are. I decided that I would push towards the darkness if it occurs during the trip and find out what’s there…
Our guide had prepped these shrooms and he took a small dose to be in tune with us.
I usually feel the effect of psychedelics fast and I think it’s because I know to just let go and surrender to whatever is coming. Like they say, ‘mushrooms don’t give you what you want, they give you what you need’. This time was no different, and pretty quickly (I think like 20min) I saw the forest glow and flicker. I lied down and closed my eyes. I had very beautiful visuals, and a lot of thoughts and questions passed through my mind. In the beginning I was aware of the forest and where I was, but there was a time where I was just part of and flowing with the visuals.
I had some ‘darkness’ and tried to explore if there was something there that I was afraid of. As soon as I pushed toward it and allowed myself to just be in it, I came out and it was pleasurable and enjoyable.
After about 2h I sat up, had some water, and grabbed my headphones for music. I saw that my friend had left his spot and I will share what happened to him in the end. I lied back down and looked at the trees as the sun was peeking through and hitting my face. I cried and had an overwhelming feeling of gratitude. Whatever built-up in my body was released. I got up and went to look at the view and cried a bit more. It wasn’t really out of sadness, but a lot of people I care about passed through my mind…
After about 4 hours the guide and I walked up to this look-out spot. He went to look for my friend. I sat here alone and just took it all in. Also found this note someone had attached and it resonated with me right there…
At this spot and moment it was me at my purest form. Everything peeled off, just empty and breathing. I realized that when I leave this spot different layers of ‘reality’ will be added on top of me. Being among people, work, social media, friends, your daily must do’s and routines… I promised myself that I would try to return to this spot in my mind if I ever need some peace and quiet internally…
The guide came back and said he wasn’t able to find my friend. I wasn’t really worried since I know he is experienced with psychedelics. But still, wanted to make sure he hadn’t fallen or hurt himself in some other way. We asked the reception at the hotel, and they hadn’t seen him. We walked back to where I was staying and asked the reception there, but no sign of him. I got my wifi back and my phone rang. Long story short, my friend walked off and felt he needed to go pee and escape the mosquitos for a bit. He walked by a cabana and just went inside. No one was there so he peed and fell asleep on the bed. He woke up and realised what happened and emerged back to reality LOL…
I like the calm I feel after a strong trip. I sat outdoors and listened to music and danced, thinking about what I saw and felt during the trip.
Still haven’t figured out why I sometimes feel fear. It’s more a feeling and not really related to anything real. Just like stress, it’s usually my mind creating scenarios and there’s not really any real reason to feel stressed.
This was an amazing trip and by night I had the fireplace lit and watched old music videos from the 80’s and 90’s 🙂
I’ve had a fun week and last night ended at W Hotel with a drag show 🙂 Will try to write during the week, but no promises 😉
Wow, what a trip. Oaxaca City is truly as amazing as everyone says. I visited Puerto Escondido earlier this year which is part of the Oaxaca state that I also loved. The best part is that it is only about an hour flight from Mexico City.
Arrived and checked in at Pug Seal Hotel that a friend had recommended. Very cool design, artsy and it’s in the middle of everything…
No time to waste and being hungry, I picked a restaurant from a list that another friend of mine had compiled with recommendations for Oaxaca. Went to Casa Oaxaca and yum yum yum, everything was delicious. Especially the lobster 🙂 I also like that they prepare the guacamole and salsa in front of you and ask how picante you want your salsa to be.
Also necessary to get the caffeine fix. Kiyo Cafe was my spot and they also had a little store with locally made stuff…
The town is beautiful and colorful. Little specialty shops, cafes, and lots of bars and restaurants.
I love mezcal and tried some drinks at Sabina Sabe. Muy bueno!
Called it a night after that…
Next day I had breakfast at the hotel. Oh, and since I’m a bit restless at times and can’t just sit and do nothing, I thought – why not swing a little before breakfast arrives…
Next door to the hotel they had this supercool shop called Peyote People. They have art inspired by peyote and made by locals. I have tried a bit of peyote and I will hopefully get to participate in a full ceremony with it soon…
Then picked up a rental car and the destination was the mushroom town San Jose del Pacifico. The town is known for magic mushrooms and I think Vice made a show about this town once…
Checked in at Casa Elba. Supercute place with different style cabanas surrounded by nature.
It was walking distance to town which is very small and charming.
Decided on an early dinner at an Asian restaurant called Tatsu. It was a bit further up from town and the view and sunset from there was beautiful! Spicy and good food too.
Breakfast at the hotel with the company of these 2 pugs that lived there 🙂
Needed more coffee and walked to town. It’s pretty cool because pretty much all of the time you are above the clouds.
The best coffee shop is Oaxacid. People are very friendly here and like to talk about the town, magic mushrooms and anything else you want. Met an interesting guy while drinking coffee. He said he’s been a ‘wanted’ person and came to San Jose del Pacifico and hid here. During Covid he made some controversial video and people with machetes were looking for him in town. Luckily it started raining and that was apparently a sign from the gods that he should not be harmed. Luckily everything had cooled down now and he could roam free. Very interesting conversation…
Decided to check out the next town over called San Mateo Rio Hondo. The road kept getting smaller and narrower until it pretty much was a dirt track. Arrived in town and it was pretty much one lane streets so decided to park, walk, and see what I could find…
I was looking for a bakery, but Google maps was not very accurate here. Saw some smoke coming from a house and though there might be a bakery located there. I was right, but apparently not the bakery I was looking for. But I got to meet this great lady and her husband that baked and sold bread to stores in nearby towns/villages. They had a clay oven with a fire where they baked it all.
Headed back after about an hour and half. Found a restaurant on the way back and since I didn’t find the bakery I decided I might as well fill up with proper food instead of sugar 🙂 This guy had just picked these chanterelles and I love them. Ordered all my food with chanterelles and my favorite was this cheese with the mushrooms on top – wow!
This restaurant was by a hotel called ‘Hotel Boutique y Cabanas Alto La Sierra’. It looked nice and they were just adding more cabanas and of course they were decorated with mushroom art 🙂
When I walked into the town I spotted this sign about magic mushrooms. I decided to hike up the short little path to a small house. There was a lady hanging up laundry and I asked if she was the one selling shrooms. Yes it was and she showed me what she had…
I did a magic mushroom ceremony the next day. I will make a different post about it because it was an amazing and a very insightful trip!
At night I ate at an italian place called La Taberna Los Duendes. Like everywhere, there were designs inspired by mushrooms. The entrance, cheese plate, napkin holder etc. Food was really good and you got huge portions. I ate here after my mushroom trip as well. How cute is my mushroom hat that I bought?
The day after my shroom trip I had a relaxed morning and shopped for some mini knitted mushrooms from this lady to put on a Psychonaut Explorer jacket I’m planning to make 🙂
Then headed back to the city. It’s about an 2.5 hour drive depending on the traffic. Stopped at one of the road side markets as well. They all sell mushroom artifacts. Or actual mushrooms 🙂
One tip, if you decide to head out to San Jose del Pacifico, bring cash! Not all places accept card payments and there are no ATM’s.
Checked in at my airbnb which had a private little pool. Of course I made the most of it while there 🙂
Next up was a food tour to taste some local flavours and mezcal. Very tasty and almost drunk when finishing up hahahaaa….
Next day I met up with a group to go visit Hierve el Agua. It’s about an 1,5h drive away and it is a set of natural travertine rock formation. I thought it was hot springs, but learned it’s not. These are mineral springs and I thing the guide said the only other one exists in Turkey. Very cool!
I had spotted this awesome pottery store the day before and went there after the tour was done. I could’ve bought half the store because the stuff was amazing. It was pretty expensive and I settled for 2 mugs. This one with mushrooms and another one with a mouth and pill on the tongue. I wish it would’ve been an acid tab instead 😉
Also found this guy and he had a screenprint that reminded me of my mushroom trip so I bought it…
Changed up and went to have a semi private tasting experience at Crudo. Wow! It was sushi, but with added Oaxacan flavors. If you have to pick one place in town to eat, eat here! We were only 6 people, but they also have a restaurant where you can eat.
That pretty much concluded my Oaxaca & San Jose del Pacifico trip. I’m pretty sure I will go back as I had the best time. I can really recommend visiting here! I will write about my mushroom journey too 🙂 Here are some left over pics…
Hope you are doing great. Anyone still on vacation? Me? I’m off to ship a pair of heels someone won in an auction and then working out. Also did an interview for the Swedish newspaper Aftonbladet this morning 🙂 Oh, and I’m trying to manage my 3rd day without sugar, bread, pasta and chips. Very hard but I’m determined to make it at least a week!
I’m off to Oaxaca tomorrow so I thought that I’d caffeinate myself and get this post up today instead.
I told you I’d write about my microdose experiences, and this is a bit of a journal of the mental expedition my mind did the last few times I microdosed.
10 seeds from the flower Ipomoea Corymbosa
What would make my life perfect? Or like what is a perfect life for me. How happy am I? Where and how would I live? What would I be doing with my time? What do I enjoy doing the most now? I have been pondering on these questions since then and my conclusion (for the moment) is at the end.
When microdosing or tripping on a larger dose, my thoughts usually involve nature and how much I love being outdoors. Either in the woods or having access to a lake/ocean. I usually think that is something I need to prioritize in my life. I start thinking that I should live in the woods or on the beach. When I then start thinking on how to make it happen, it turns out that a Tarzan-like lifestyle sounds amazing, but I realize pretty quickly that I’d get bored. I obviously go to the extremes in my plans to live completely remote, self sustained etc… So where’s the middle ground in all of this?
I think about how I use my time. Sometimes I fantasize that I shouldn’t have any ‘musts’ in my life. I can just wake up and be free to do whatever I want without thinking about earning or needing money. My thoughts go to painting, photography, and reading… I realized that I do enjoy being in front of the camera and creating content though. If I did all of my hobbies, just for fun, I think I would feel unfulfilled. I need some ‘musts’ in my life to be able to enjoy doing the things that are more of a hobby.
My mind can bounce to shallow things like my looks. One minute I’m all self-loving and accept myself just as I am. But I don’t accept myself thaaaat much, that I would give up on Botox. Other times I feel that I need to do all I can to look my best and consider eyelid surgery and if it’s too late for me to get butt implants hahhaaaa…
I consider how important social media is in my life. I think I’d feel more liberated if I didn’t feel the need to take pics or have to post as much.
Things… Sometimes I imagine a life with only the necessary things that I really need. But in reality I’m a bit of a hoarder. I love things. Tacky and kitsch, shiny and bright, weird and of no use at all…
Money… How much money is enough? Is my happiness tied to money? Sometimes I feel like a minimalist and that I’m good as is. Other times I fantasize about having millions. Or even billions and plot plans how to achieve that..
For now I have come up with something that I think would be the perfect life with maxed out happiness. I would buy a farm of some kind. I would rescue animals and invite people who needed relaxation, presence of animals, and nature to come and visit. The place would also function as a psychedelic retreat for cosmic astronauts 🙂
Psilocybin
Sooo, who else is a cosmic astronaut here?
Very excited to go to Oaxaca tomorrow. Heard so much about it. In Spanish August is Agosto, but because the mushrooms grow now they call it Hongosto. My hope is to go and pick shrooms while I’m there 🙂 I just need a guide to tell which ones I can actually consume 🙂
Doesn’t feel like anything out of the ordinary happened this week. Some weeks pass and you barely notice it. Like you just got through it… I don’t like that. I like to feel like I accomplished something. I guess that’s just how it is and I need to take a chill-pill 🙂
I did 2 classes of pilates this week which was great.
Got my shooting done…
Guess I was still in Barbie mode and tried to pimp Hunter out in a wig too. He had no wish to play dress up 🙁
One of the most eventful things this week was Hunter catching a bird. I have no clue how that happened. All of a sudden he was playing with something outside the bedroom when I was reading. He was really wild so I decide I’d go and have a look. I heard cats like to bring you gifts and he seemed very proud showing off the dead birdie. After disposing of the bird and vacuuming up all the feathers, I tried to explain to him that no more gifts are necessary…
But he is so damn cute so he’s forgiven… For some reason he likes to sleep as tight by my butt as possible…
They had an event at the hair salon so I got my hair taken care of…
Spent the time brunching and walking around yesterday until it started pouring down.
I also got dry needling done again and it was as painful as last time. Got a regular massage too and that was pretty much my week. Oh, I also booked a trip to Oaxaca and I’m leaving next Sunday. This time visiting the city and also going to a small town in the mountains called San Jose del Pacifico. Very excited for this because it’s shroom season!!! So my hope is to go out in the woods there and shroom 🙂
OK, hoping for a more eventful week to come 🙂 What do you have going on? Send me some inspiration 🙂
First get the work done, and if work includes skimpy outfits, even better 🙂
Hard to get there, but always a rewarding feeling when done at the gym!
I also felt that I’ve had a tight back, so I went to see the physical therapist. It was so painful to be massaged on some spots, so he suggested dry needling. Never done it and I don’t like needles. Not very pleasant, but damn it felt good afterwards! Going back for more next week 🙂 Look at the video if you have a needle fetish 😉
My hair required some deep treatment so like always, Angel took care of it.
Right before I took off to Sweden, I went to a store close to where I live. I’ve never been there because I thought they only sold lamps. One day I decided to go in and check it out since I pass it a lot. Started to talk with the owner and she’s selling all kinds of fun stuff there. Also clothing. Long story short, I showed her my stuff and she asked me if she can have some items in her store. I gave her some jackets, tops and pants. When I got back from Sweden she texted and said she almost sold everything I gave her. Wohoooo, that’s so cool. So now I’m working on some Mexican themed jackets among other things to give her 🙂
And Hunter felt it was necessary for him to be present and ‘help’ out…
Some friends have been visiting Mexico city too. A really fun couple and their kids from Puerto Rico. On Friday us girls dressed up and went to see the ‘Barbie’ movie. So much fun 🙂
Afterwards we ended up at Chucky Cheese. I love playing their games! Apparently I don’t fit into child seats/chair or whatever they’re called anymore…
Then a late night dinner and the orange wig gave up…
And there’s always coffee and selfies…
Had dinner with Sabrina and her husband too. We are planning some fun things together 🙂 To be revealed soon…
And leftovers…
This about concludes it. Oh, microdosed a couple of times too. Will write a separate post about it because I got some interesting thoughts from it 🙂 OK, let’s see what next week brings on 🙂
Like I wrote in the previous post, it was busy in Sweden. I wanted to hang with my family and see all of my friends. And squeeze in work…First off was dinner with one of our cousins. Walked home after and I got to witness a beautiful sunset over Stockholm…
Then off to my friend Katrin’s summer house in the Archipelago. It’s on a small island with a few other houses. It’s super relaxing there. Or at least it was until her sister, husband, and their dad with a horde of kids arrived hahhaaa… We thought it would be a great idea to eat by the water as the sun was shining. Well, 15 minutes later it was storming! Typical Swedish summer 😉
Katrin isn’t even a Finn, but she has a sauna. Pretty much everyone went in and then swam in the ocean. Can’t think of many things that beat a sauna and swimming after! Spent the night and had a beautiful sunny day the next morning. Chilling by the pool and tried cheating the kids in poker hahhaaa… Then boating back…
Then off to see my friend Linda. Every summer we are pretty much the same gang who gets together for bbq and catch up.
Also did a road trip with Mark and we went up north to Hudiksvall to celebrate our friend Anton. We didn’t say I was coming too, so it was fun surprising him. Very fun party and we all snuggled up to Anton when the guy had enough of the celebration hahhaaa…
When in Sweden, my must have food is meatballs. Had them more than once at the same place 🙂
Hung out with my oldest friend Karina a few times. I’m lucky to have friends with such great places that I can crash when visiting. There’s also a sauna down by the water that we usually put to use, but it was hot enough outside…
One of my favorite places to visit when in Stockholm is Fotografiska (The Contemporary Museum of Photography). My sister likes it too, so we went and saw the Peter Lindbergh exhibition and others.
I also went and checked my hearing. For those who don’t know, I have a hearing aid. This might actually be the first time I’m admitting it hahahaa… Been kind of embarrassed over it for some reason. Anyways, I’ve had it for about 8 years, but I don’t use it a lot. A lot of my friends were pointing out now that they have to repeat themselves often because I don’t hear what they are saying, or I hear something completely different. My hearing has gotten worse, and they adjusted my hearing aid. At the same time they told me that there are new and improved hearing aids now. With bluetooth and a charging case so you don’t need the tiny ass batteries anymore. So that’s on my list to fix now, an upgraded hearing aid. Sexy!
The last weekend in Stockholm, I went to a 90’s music festival with Katrin and some other friends. We wanted to dress in 90’s outfits, but what was the style of the 90’s? I had a mixture of clothes and I had my sister ‘waffle’ my hair. Not sure you call it that in English, but in Swedish it was called ‘våffla håret’ and I’m pretty sure I did that back in the 90’s 🙂
Afterwards we went out. The night ended with someone smoking some strong weed and thinking they’d been drugged. Had to point out that it was weed in a vape they smoked that they somehow completely had missed hahhaaaaa. My last pic in my camera from that night…
It’s always with mixed feelings when I pack up. I always wish I had at least 1-2 more weeks at home.
But then I’m also excited going back and I miss Hunter when I’m gone. I had a couple of interesting ‘work’ meetings while in Stockholm. We are working and polishing the idea now, and the plan is to pitch it in the beginning of September. Fingers crossed 🙂
Smooth flight back and I was happy I had Hunter to jet-lag with 🙂 He might have been more tired than I was…
I now have friends visiting from Puerto Rico which is great. Us girls are going to see the Barbie movie on Friday. Good to be back at the gym and in front of the camera 🙂 Catch ya’ all later!
I’ve been back in Mexico for almost a week. Missing Sweden, friends and family a bit, with a touch of jet lag. At the same time I’m excited to back, as I have friends visiting here, Hunter, and a bunch of fun stuff that I’m working on 🙂
Been lagging on my posts, but barely had time to put my butt down in Sweden. A week of hiking, roadtrip, birthday party, dinners, 90’s festival and some interesting work.
My sister and I flew up north in Sweden for what’s now become our yearly hike. This time we tried Kungsleden, aka the Kings Trails. We did the most southern part of it from Hemavan to Ammarnas for a total of 6 days and 5 nights.
We flew from Stockholm to Hemavan. My backpack was 9.35kg…
You can obviously do it faster, but we like to make stops and enjoy the nature while out. There weren’t many stops the first day as it rained pretty much when the plane landed, until we made it to the first hut. Please appreciate my raincoat that makes me look like ‘The Hunchback of Notre Dame’ since my backpack underneath looked like my sister was hiding in there while piggyback riding me hahahaha…
Still a great day out as it didn’t pour and wasn’t too cold.
This was the first week the trail was open so there was only a couple of other people staying in the Viterskalet hut and we got our own room. My sister lit the fire and we enjoyed some food before going to bed. A bit weird since it’s daylight 24/7 up there this time of the year…
My sister and I are alike and we both wake up early. We were having coffee at 6am. Here’s a pic of the Viterskalet lodge when the sun was out the next morning 🙂
Most people eat breakfast before heading out, but we like to find a nice spot and eat it outdoors. This part of the trail was super nice. The sun was out and we started hiking in a valley between two mountains. Pretty crazy it was the end of June and there still was a lot of snow on some parts.
Pit stop with coffee, snacks, and catched up with some other hikers on the trail…
Reached the top after a long uphill hike and we found this spot. Perfect for a break and a nap 🙂 We can pretty much nap anywhere and nothing is better than sleeping outdoors!
The 2nd night we stayed at the Syter Lodge. Washed up in the river and it was cold so you didn’t linger in there…
This was Midsummer’s Eve in Sweden so we had brought small Champagne bottles with us to celebrate 🙂
We had a great host at the hut and she baked us a cake to celebrate 🙂
3rd day was sunny, but super windy. We started to notice the mosquitos, so having a bit of wind was good to blow those f*ckers away!
Bundled up for breakfast break…
It was a pretty easy hike, a total of 14 Km.
Arrived at Tärnasjö Lodge and they had a store at this lodge so a beer and some chips in the sun hit the spot!
Best part of this lodge is that there is a sauna by the lake here. Us being Finns, it’s like telling “Santa’s coming” to a child!
These huts are self-serviced, meaning you carry in water in buckets for cooking and chop up firewood for the fire pits or in this case the sauna. My sister had it down pretty good and I mostly supervised hahhaaa…
The sauna was beautifully located right by a lake so you hit the sauna and then go swimming. Or more like dip yourself in there and hurry back in the sauna. It was like 5 Celcius in the lake brrrr…
Packing up outside the lodge the next morning. It was sunny and it was going to be a hot day…
This was also a 14km day. A nice stop by a river to cool off before a climb to reach Serve Lodge.
The 5th day of hiking was the longest one, 19km. It had a couple of long uphill parts that required some resting after 🙂
Spotted an all-white reindeer. They are suppose to bring you luck. I’m still waiting 😉
Added a stop here to fill our water bottles and I did an impromptu photo session 🙂
The last lodge, Aigert, also had a sauna and you could swim in a small pond after. Such a great feeling after a long day outdoors!
The last day was only 8 km to Ammarnäs. Looking back at the hut and then walking mostly in the woods and crossing rivers…
Came across this great waterfall that was our last stop and also required an impromptu photo session again hahhaaaa… Luckily my sister is very patient!
We then finished and ate some waffles with whipped cream and cloudberry jam at a cafe. Then a 5h buss ride to Luleå where the train back to Stockholm left from. As I said, we nap everywhere LOL… I’m just nice enough not to post the picture of my sister sleeping with her mouth open 😉
Some more pics that I forgot to squeeze in the post…
Burgers and fries before the train tasted so good after eating ‘hiking food’ for 6 days. Then passing out on the train. Almost as good as sleeping outdoors…
Such a great time with my sister and can’t wait for our next hike! We get along so great and get to share great talks and a lot of laughter while out together 🙂 Thanks sis!
OK, going to go through the rest of my pics and going to compile it all together for the remaining time I was in Sweden…
Hunter sends his regards and says “Stay cool…” and we’re wondering what you’ve been up to?
It was a busy week where I got good work done, exercised, shot content, and tried to take time off to read and create. Someone sent this to me and it was a good reminder that it is important to have a day or at least some time off…
One day I managed to do one booty/leg class at Commando and then hit the Crossfit gym with Dyana. My poor legs felt like overcooked spaghetti after 🙂
Hopped in some skimpy outfits and got some content done…
I love these two vintage tops that I finished for Psychonaut Explorer. I love clothing from the 60’s and 70’s 🙂 And mushrooms LOL…
Yesterday I went with Angel to Cinderella’s house for some pizza. I’m impressed that I managed a whole night speaking Spanish with them. Sure, there was some Spanglish and Google translator app used, but I would have understood nada a year ago 🙂
Hunter thought my dress made the perfect ‘tent’ for him to chill under before I left.
And if (more like when) I take a nap this is his spot…
Not sure what the rest of the day will bring, but I hope to finish a book, try some new fabric paint, and maybe microdose 🙂 I feel excited about the upcoming weeks. Got a lot of interesting stuff in the works and I have a great feeling about it 🙂
I now keep track of what happens at the Mycelia Retreat https://www.myceliajm.com/ in Jamaica, and I saw they have an upcoming retreat in July with a discount. Look at our amazing group shot in the middle 🙂
OK, need one more Cappuccino now 🙂 Enjoy your day and remember to chill!
OK, I’m going to attempt to talk about my week in Jamaica. A short summary would be – amazing, magical, fun, and when can I go back?
But here’s the longer version in case someone else is interested in trying a psilocybin retreat.
Before going I filled out an intake form. Questions like: ‘Are you on any medication? Any trauma in my life? Expectations?’ Etc… I personally haven’t experienced any big trauma in my life. I always trust the medicine (in this case psilocybin) to take my awareness to where it needs to go… I had a Zoom call with the facilitator Evelyn, where I could ask questions and talk about any concerns I might have.
On Friday the 26th it was finally time to fly to Jamaica. Uber picked me up at 3am. Flight to Miami and then connecting to Montego Bay landing around 1.30pm. Long line in customs. I got picked up by Troy who runs Mycelia Retreat and Chuck, another guy participating.
We stopped and ate some jerk pork on the way. Soo tasty!
It was about a 2 hour ride from the airport to Osho Rios. We checked in at Sago Palm. We then went to the hotel Sand & Tan, what they called the ‘Sister Retreat’. Justin, another participant, joined us there. We watched the sunset and had dinner before going back and catching some sleep.
Saturday 27th
Had breakfast on my own at the hotel. Since the rest of the participants were arriving later, I walked to the beach after breakfast. On the way there I was offered free lunch, getting my hair braided, and weed hahahaa… People were really friendly and a lady I talked to walked me to the beach. For $10 you got a beach chair and umbrella… A guy on the beach offered fishing tours and snorkeling on his boat and when I kindly declined, -”But how about some weed”. I learned that everyone’s last offer was always weed LOL…
At 1.30 we got picked up at the hotel and went to the main villa where you stay during the retreat. Wow, what a place….
A massage was included and Keela massaged so well I fell asleep.
By the time I woke up, the four other participants had arrived. Seemed like very nice people. Troy picked us up Indian food for dinner and everyone sat talking and getting to know each other. Slept like a baby in my big room 🙂
Sunday 28th.
Coffee was at 8am. At 9am, Marcel, our fabulous chef, served fresh fruit and a porridge made of ground plantain and peanuts with local honey. At 10am we were introduced to Mama Orah, our yoga teacher. I had expected a strenuous class, but it was the best yoga in my life. I think she said her practice was more African style. Very relaxed, slow movements, breathing while she shared a lot of wisdom. We were all blown away after. The last picture of Mama Orah just captures how cool and fun she is!
Marcel served us a delicious lunch after and we had some free time. Other people got their massages and most of us lounged by the pool.
Around 1.30 there was a group meeting with Evelyn, our facilitator. Some people didn’t have much experience with psilocybin so questions and concerns were answered. I never did psychedelics in a group setting and was curious how other people’s energies and experiences on shrooms were going to affect my trip.
Around 3pm we were driven to the nearby beach, Sugar Pot. Not a lot of people there and we picked a spot under some trees. We were given 2 gummies that had about 1,5gr of psilocybin in total. This was an introductory dose so that everyone was eased into it.
Everyone eventually wanted to be on the beach so we moved the chairs there. We were swimming, listening to music, talking and laughing. It was very relaxed and I felt the group coming together more and more.
Very light trip and I only had light visuals when closing my eyes. I think it was a great idea to start with a lighter trip to see how everyone was handling it and bonding people together. We left after about 4 hours and were cracking up with laughter in the car riding back. At the villa Marcel had cooked us a delicious dinner with jerk chicken, bone in chicken, vegetables and rice with beans. Then everyone sat around talking about their observations while tripping. Such a great and fun day!
Monday 29th
I was having coffee around 8 and people dropped in after they woke up. At 10am we had another great yoga session with Mama Orah. Slow moving, breathing and feeling your body. Mama Orah told us she would be joining us at the jungle ceremony too wohooo… We all loved her presence! After lunch we settled for another group talk. Evelyn told us what was planned for the jungle ceremony. We talked about our intentions for the ceremony. I shared that I want to give myself acceptance. I don’t have to be busy or creating something for my time to be considered valuable. I’m not wasting my life or time by reading, napping, or doing something that is not work.
It was very interesting to hear people share. We were also introduced to Jordan who is a psychedelic guide. He also has been cross breeding strains to create what he believes is a great mushroom strain to take in the jungle setting. The sweetest and most humble guy. His family owns the property in the jungle where we were going.
I watched the mushrooms being prepared for tea.
I packed a bag with bug spray, head lamp, a sweater, pants and a scarf, and around 3pm we were all packed up and ready to head out. About an hour ride into the jungle and in the end it was just 2 tracks for the car tires. We parked and were given 3 mushroom chocolates that were about 2gr of psilocybin in total. It was about a 20min walk down to ‘our’ spot.
I’ve heard how amazing it was supposed to be down there, but I was blown away. First we went to a place by the river where we could get into the water. It was crystal clear and cold.
I was already feeling the mushrooms and felt so at peace in the surrounding nature. Hearing birds and crickets. Then we moved out to another spot they had set up with lounge chairs. We were in a circle and we got served the mushroom tea. Everyone passing a cup to the next person after giving it a blessing or whatever you felt like passing on in silence. The jungle became 3D for me. I was feeling so good. I tend to get very relaxed and prefer to lay down. I asked for a yoga mat and laid down. I put my scarf over me and cocooned up. I had such beautiful visuals. Not seeing them, but being part of them. Sometimes I was brought back by hearing the group around me. Mama Orah sometimes played a drum or sound bowls. Then it was all dark and and the fireflies came out and surrounded us. I thought they would be small flies lit up, but they looked more like birds on fire. It was so beautiful watching them. I wish I could’ve filmed it, but I wanted to stay in the moment. I remembered thinking that I never want to leave this spot…
After the effect of the mushrooms subsided, we moved up under the ‘dome’ made up from bamboo trees and watched the fire. I felt so happy. People were talking and processing their experience. It started to rain and Troy handed out umbrellas.
I think we were down there for about 5h before heading back to the villa. Marcel had prepared us soup and one by one we dropped back into our rooms. I felt drained and fell asleep without even a shower…
Tuesday 29th
Everyone talked about their journeys in the jungle during breakfast. Mama Orah came and gave us our last yoga class. I consider her to be one of the best things I experienced here. At the end of class we all just laid down and Mama Orah covered us with blankets. It was pouring rain and we all just took it in.
This being the 3rd day, it was optional if you wanted to have another journey. In the morning I felt that I probably wasn’t going to because the jungle ceremony had been so great. But then I decided I wanted to. I drank a cup of mushroom tea around 7pm. I felt it kick in so fast and chose a secluded spot by the pool on my own. Again I had such beautiful visuals and I was listening to music in my ear buds. At one point I tried to join people by the table, but my body and head told me I wasn’t done. I laid down again and let go… Lot of thoughts of my family, friends and people in my life that I care about and love. When I emerged from my trip, I saw that I was alone. I felt like everyone had abandoned me at first.. But then I realized that everything was good. I put my earbuds in again and started moving slowly to the music. First came tears. Not feeling sad, but it felt like I was releasing something from my body. I then put on disco music and started really dancing. I felt like I had so much energy. I danced until I was soaked in sweat. I probably went at it for an hour.
Then I sat down and just felt at peace… another guest named John came out for snacks and we sat talking for a bit before going to bed. My favorite part of this trip was the dancing at the end…
Wednesday 30th
The retreat was officially over, but most of us had decided to stay a couple of more days. We checked in at Sand & Tan and I’m so happy I got to spend more time with the group.
A diverse group of people with different backgrounds, life experiences, and reasons why they had come here, but we all bonded together. We were lounging by the water,swimming,eating and paddleboarding.
We had dinner with Troy, Evelyn, and John at night on the dock. Talking about all the cool stuff we will remember. There was even talk about a reunion and I really hope that would happen since I would totally go back!
On Thursday John and I went floating down a river. Pretty relaxing except for when our ‘guide’ decided to sing very loud hahahaa…
Of course there was someone selling weed in the middle of it all too.
Also had time to hit the market in Osho Rios.
I styled up in Jamaican colors that night with my new outfit 🙂
And look at this superb cup I got from Roby, one of the participants. I think I had mentioned something about ‘size matters’ and possibly #tittytuesday hahahaaa…
Had time to catch a last breakfast with the group before a driver took me to the airport. Flights were smooth and landed back in Mexico around 8pm.
It truly was one of the best experiences ever! The location, people, jungle, the trips… I wouldn’t change a thing and I believe I will go back. Reunion or not 🙂 And if any of you are looking for a retreat, I highly recommend Mycelia Retreat! <—– If curios, click the link and register and you can win a 4-day retreat 🙂 Here are some more pics…
And the best thing about coming home? Cuddles with Hunter 🙂
