Ho ho ho… Just wanted to stop by and wish you an amazing holiday season! I’m in San Francisco and everything is great 🙂 Will post more next week, but need to go stuff myself with more Oreos, chips & candy now. Will eventually feel sick, but that too shall pass 🙂
Here are some Xmas pics that might brighten your day. Otherwise just look at Hunter S Thompson’s Xmas pics. Guaranteed you’ll be happier than he was being forced into this hat and scarf LMAO…
Are you guys prepping for the holidays? What and where are you going to spend it? Doing anything special or no f*cks given? I got a bit homesick thinking of all the special Swedish foods we have for the holidays, the cold, snow and darkness. So what did I find? A Scandinavian holiday ‘something’ celebration in one of the WhatsApp groups. Turns out it was at a church with Christmas songs in Swedish, Finnish, and Danish. And the coolest part, the girls singing them were Mexicans and sang them perfectly. Very impressed! The other best part was that they sold ‘lussebullar’, cinnamon buns and Finnish ‘mustikkapiirakka’ which is blueberry pie. Obviously I bought a bunch and suddenly I wasn’t so homesick after all 🙂
Buuuut then yesterday morning I started craving again and googled where the IKEA store is here in Mexico City. Ordered an Uber and off I went. Bought so much Swedish candy that I had stomach pain the rest of the day. But it was well worth it hahhahaaa…
Pasts weeks work for the ‘spicy’ site 🙂
Also worked on Psychonaut Explorer shooting and created a Sale section on the website.
Found my way to the gym too and feel healthy and strong now 🙂 Also tried a new gym called Commando with my friend Dyana. It was awesome and felt like a morning disco with a workout!
Are you guys following the World Cup? There are a lot of Argentinians here in the City and they all seem to gather at this restaurant around the corner here and cheer the Argentinian team on.
And Hunter is doing great. I feel like I have a kid now. We love to chill on the balcony and take naps together. At night he expects his usual treat which is turkey slices with some Philadelphia cheese that I serve him on a napkin hahahaaa 🙂
A couple of selfies and this cute pig I ran into one night when out walking 🙂
Now going to eat some cured salmon and hit the gym. Going to do some Xmas gift shopping this week, work a lot, and then I have a small Swedish Xmas celebration with friends. I feel excited for this week and hope you will have an amazing week too 🙂
I thought I’d share my notes and thoughts from yesterday’s trip. I took a medium dosage of mushrooms with three friends. I also had some Rapé before because I like the clarity and calmness from it…
2pm Took 75% of a ‘purple owl’ chocolate mushroom that was 1.5 grams of mushrooms but it was mixed with a MAO inhibitor. Here we go…
2.23pm I read some Osho – ‘Last in the Evening’, before eating the chocolate and I went outside smoking and decided this trip was going to be to celebrate me. Kind of like Osho says, celebrate everything. My body and mind is just a shell…
4.30pm Pretty high. Beautiful to let go. Eating some chips now.
5.16pm A lot of thoughts, here they come…
Would everything be better without humans?
Do I need to change?
Is it enough to be aware?
What good can I do?
Where do you draw the line between accepting yourself as you are? What if you have depression, anxiety or something else…
5.30pm I feel exhausted…
Lied back down and let my mind drift. The question “what is the most beautiful thing in the world?” came to mind… Kept thinking about it and two things came to me – nature and freedom… I asked my friends and one of them said kindness. Another one said curiosity and wonder. The third one was processing his own trip so don’t have his input…
Around 7.30pm we all felt that the trip had ended and talked about it. Went eating and back home. Read some more OSHO before falling asleep.
A lot of people talk about integration after having a trip. What you do or how to process what you experienced during your altered state. Sometimes I don’t have so many thoughts after a trip; it can be just a recreational experience that I enjoy. But last night and today I’ve been thinking a lot about the images and thoughts that came to me during the trip. I think it has to do with reading the OSHO book.
I was thinking about what is the most important thing that I took with me from my trip. I think it’s the word compassion. In a way it was one of the most beautiful trips I’ve had. Very beautiful images, thoughts, and feelings. Sometimes I feel it’s not fair that I’m feeling so good considering how many people are suffering. During my trip, I was thinking of people in war for example. I don’t know how it would work, but I tried to say in my mind that I could take on their pain/suffering/fear for a while since I was feeling so good. Let them feel what I’m feeling, I would take on what they are feeling, and give them a break for a bit. Or that somehow we could connect and I could share what I’m feeling and my head-space.
Usually on my trips I always come to the conclusion that I have to spend more time in nature. On my walk this morning I thought about prioritizing to plan a trip to hike in Patagonia next year. But then thinking about what Osho says in the book, you don’t have to climb Everest or fly to the moon to find happiness, you need to work on your inner self right where you are. So should I just be content where I am, or should I plan a trip?
I always love these experiences as they give a lot of insight and I feel I become more aware. I will keep pondering on my questions and see what else arises.
Please share if you have any memories or stories from experiencing psychedelics 🙂
Hope all of my American readers had a fabulous Thanksgiving. I think we were 5 gringos (I count myself since I’m a US citizen) and the rest being Mexicans, British, Colombians, Ecuadorian and Argentinians. Fun night and I managed not to party too hardy 🙂
Also had my vajayjay checked for cancer. The correct term actually being having a pap smear. I’m very comfortable going to the gynecologist and this lady was superchill. I even asked if it was OK for me to film and take pics and she happily posed along while digging in hahhaaaa… And she also did an ultrasound to check the ‘interior’ and luckily there was no baby found 😉
Hunter also had to go to the veterinarian for his private parts. I felt so bad to take him in knowing they were going to take his balls 🙁 But everyone recommended me to do the procedure. He also has had some ‘episodes’ that to me felt like anxiety. Hoping it was all hormones and testosterone. I have now also put a collar with some calming scent on him and he has been chill and relaxed.
OK, while I’m at it, a couple more pics of Hunter. Poor guy wasn’t too impressed with me trying to dress him in a mini sombrero. Tried to tell him it was all for Mexico and to support them against Argentina in yesterday’s football match. Our support obviously didn’t matter since MEX lost 0-2.
Working on some new pieces for Psychonaut Explorer and Hunter is my sidekick when updating the website…
It was time to boost the color of my hair too…
I have a new favorite spot in town – Marne Panaderia. I’m actually sitting there now writing this. They have amazing French Toast and superb coffee!
l have read a lot and will try to put together a post of some recommendations. When not reading I watch White Lotus season 2, very good. The Industry season 2 is also great. Last one – The Peripheral, very interesting as I think we’ll see and start experiencing more virtual reality in the near future. And then I microdosed on some acid to reset for a new week 🙂
OK, done now. Going to order another coffee and get some more work done 🙂 Stay amazing!
Sooo, other than doing the Changa ceremony a couple of weeks ago, I was invited to a Mexican ‘Día de Muertos’ celebration in Xochimilco. Like Halloween, but more about celebrating the dead than costumes and candy 🙂 We started by having some food and drinks in this tent in the middle of the farm fields.
There was an ofrenda and you could place photos of people or pets that have passed. An ofrenda is like an altar that you place the photos there so the dead can pass through from the other side and visit. You also place things they liked there too like chocolate, drinks, etc. People sang songs and we could then talk or send greetings to our dead. Very beautiful…
We also got these carved pumpkins to light up. Then we went to their field for flowers and got to pick some to places on graves.
After, we took very shallow boats through canals to the cemetery. I think they usually transport their crops on these boats. These pics are in color, but they look like black & white photos. Such eerie light. Very Halloweenie like 🙂
After like 20 min on the water we docked and walked to the cemetery. Wow, one of the coolest and most beautiful sights I’ve seen. So many flowers and lights. People sitting by the graves eating and playing songs the dead used to like. It wasn’t sad, more like a celebration of the ones that passed to the other side. Some graves didn’t have anything on them so we placed our flowers on them…
Very happy I got to see this and I think I will go visit a graveyard here each Halloween… And speaking about ofrendas. Someone had made this one for their dogs, fish & turtles on the side of a walkway. Love it!
Had to put in some work too. Don’t mind me, I’m just being sleazy over here…
Working on the gains too. They’re just not happening fast enough… Or at all?
Some work on Psychonaut Explorer too. And these t-shirts are hopefully ready this month. My favorite ingredients for some enlightenment LOL…
Then I got invited to an event for Guess and Marciano. Dyana who owns the hair salon where I do pretty much all my beautifications like hair, nails and lashes. She was sponsoring the event so I got to go and tag along. Luxury to get pimped out at the salon first. And to have Champagne before 8am. Suits me just fine…
Some beautifications require stronger means and went to get Botox with a friend. Friends that do Botox together, stay together 😉
I went to a private house concert. If I could add another talent to my already vast library of talents (maybe a joke), it would be to sing or play drums.
They have a lot of meet-ups here in the city. Everything from partying, ladies groups, hiking, selling things etc. Yesterday one of them invited who-ever-wants-to-come to a picnic in one of the parks. Decided to go and check it out and it was great. Met some really nice people. Some of us also went and checked out an art exhibition close by…
My favorite thing to do now is to cuddle with Hunter. He is just so sweet and has settled in just fine. He talks, eats and sleeps a lot 🙂 Even able to have the balcony door open and we like to relax out there together 🙂
That’s about it. I leave you with some giant blueberries and a Hulk-like me 🙂 Enjoy your Sunday and grab next week by the nuts & lips 😉
I often take lsd or mushrooms in various dosages. I personally believe in the benefits of these substances and expanding the mind. I also think there is huge difference betweens psychedelic ‘medicine’, and drugs like cocaine that doesn’t offer you anything beneficial other than sobering up or feeling great at the moment. Same thing with alcohol really. It’s widely accepted for people to get drunk, and consider how many lives are affected and ruined by it. I research, read a lot, and have great respect for psychedelics. I don’t write this as an encouragement, just sharing my opinions and experiences.
I know a native Mexican guy here who has a lot of experience in this field and has published studies about different medicines and psychedelics. I have been curious for a long time about DMT and he facilitated a Changa ceremony for me and a friend.
https://psychedelicspotlight.com/ says this about the Changa – ‘Changa is a smokeable mixture containing the psychoactive substance dimethyltryptamine (DMT).’
I felt relaxed the morning of the ceremony. Only drank water and didn’t eat anything. We met at 10am and talked about the ceremony. We first got some rapé that had a very calming effect. It is blown through a pipe up in your nose.
Image and text by https://vse-o-tattoo.ru/
Rape is a “sacred tobacco” used by shamans in the Amazon region. It is also known as Hapay or Hapi. The ancient Mayan and Inca cultures used rapé in their rituals. For what purpose? It was believed that in this way they could connect with the Great Spirit and draw energy from it, called Yushibu (the power of creativity and creation).
Then we lied down and got some eye drops from a plant that grows by a river in the Amazons. That was the hardest part. It stings so bad and you were not allowed to rub your eyes. It got better and passed in about 2-3min. I believe this part of the ceremony has something to do with the river water somehow transporting the spirits inside your body. Not 100% sure since it was a lot to take in…
Then there was the protection of tobacco blown over our bodies. Also rubbing our arms and belly with some powder. Then holding hands and asking for the spirits to guide the way. Then it was time to smoke the Changa he had prepared for us. He blows the smoke through a glass pipe and you inhale, hold it down and breathe it out. On my 3rd inhale everything in the room started to morph heavily. After the 4th inhale I immediately felt like I had to close my eyes and lie down. He then placed a cloth over our eyes. It’s hard to describe it to make sense. I saw a native Indian chief at first. Then moving mandalas. Then came the spirits that felt ancient and mixed with different animals. They surrounded me and it was so very beautiful. I wasn’t scared, but it felt intense. Then it started to lose its’ strength and the visuals became less and less. I started crying. Not out of sadness, more like a relief. I think it all lasted for about 5 minutes. It was such a powerful experience and I spent the rest of the day just relaxing and thinking about what was shown to me… I am convinced I will do it again.
I will make another blog post about other stuff I did last week too 🙂 Just feel that this one deserved it’s own post.
Do you have plans for today? Or did you celebrate your butt off this past weekend? Tomorrow I’m celebrating it in Xochimilco. I think we’re going on river boats first. Then there is a dinner with a local family, and later we go to the graveyard. Or at least I think that’s the plan 🙂 I did do a shoot in my costume. I think I’m supposed to be a voodoo doll…
We celebrated on Saturday too with some chicas…
I also went to an event with Sabrina and her husband. Some TV show over here celebrated 15 years on TV and there was a red carpet, drinks, performances and Lucha Libre of course.
No escape from work though…
And work out. I think I have the best water bottle at the gym though. Or what you think?
But now the big news! You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting. Worse than a kid before Christmas. And then finally yesterday I got the text. I’m going to be a cat mom 🙂 When we were at Boxque Teva like 3 weeks ago there was this super cuddly homeless cat. They asked if I wanted it since he needs a home and love. I considered it for a week and then said yes. But since he was homeless he showed up at random times and he needed to go to the vet to be checked up too. Sooooo, yesterday it was finally time to go pick him up at the vet. He is so chill and didn’t mind the vet at all… they said he’s about 5 years old.
He still needs to get vaccinated and most likely have his balls removed 🙁 They said it’s usually best since they can start spraying and marking their territory otherwise. I’ll give him some time first to see how he behaves. He hid under the couch for an hour first. Then he came out and was ready to get cuddled 🙂 I’ve decided to name him Hunter S Thompson. If you don’t know him, Google him. Pretty funny dude 🙂
It’s amazing how chill he is. Still I’ve said it’s a trial period since I want to make sure he adapts to being indoors and be happy about it. I do plan to try to take him outdoors later if he seems to enjoy it. Maybe even get a cat stroller hahahaaa… I do hope he’s going to adjust well and be a happy cat 🙂 If you have a similar experiences and any tips for me, please share 🙂
Going to the gym soon and then plan to work from home so I can keep an eye on Hunter 🙂 I leave you with this selfie where I look my best. That’s why we do take selfies, right 😉
Happy Halloween and sending some extra love & thoughts to my family, relatives, friends & pets that have crossed over to the other side. #RIP
FINALLY! www.psychonautexplorer.com is live. I still have a lot of clothing to add on it, but it’s at least viewable and shop-able 🙂 Giving myself a pat on the shoulder as I’m writing this 😉
Other than working on the website, ‘regular’ work had to be shot and videos to be made.
You know you work hard when a shoe comes apart in the middle of shooting…
I had my friends Laura and George come visit for a few days. I known Laura from when I first got into the adult business. She used to work for Naughty America and we have stayed friends since. Now we’ve been working on a superfun NFT project together. When it becomes more finalized, I’ll share some more with you. But it’s going to be trippy, hilarious, creative and awesome! Just a small little sample…
We ran around Mexico City and I also took them to my favorite spot Boxque Teva. Visited an old monastery up in the woods the next day…
More of us… We met up with Sabrina one day and just look how happy Laura is hahahaaa…. They also had an October Fest celebration here in CDMX. We went and downed beer and stuffed ourselves with various sausages and sauerkraut!
Then I had a 24h food poisoning and could barely move for a day. But now I’m feeling great and been hitting some good workouts!
The other day I microdosed on LSD with a couple of friends. It was great being outdoors and we finished off by getting a sound bath. I only tried it once before, but there also was a gong and I think it interrupted the flow of the sound bath. This session was amazing though. I felt like I was totally lost in it, only flowing with the sounds. Will definitely do this again!
Here are some more pics of when I’m out and about doing who knows what 😉
I’m also waiting for something very eagerly! I hope to get ‘it’ this upcoming week. Hopefully in my next blog I can show you!
Hope you are great and doing your thing, whatever it is 🙂 This sums me up pretty good except that I’m pretty proud of it 🙂
I popped by Sweden again for 10 days. Intense to say the least. I arrived a few days after my birthday so my sister welcomed me with this 🙂 Arrived late so we popped a bottle and went to bed.
Then it was time to celebrate my friend Katrin’s birthday. She doesn’t do mellow or believe in ‘less-is-more’, so the party was wild!
Barely had time to recover before it was time to head up north hiking with my sister again. Took the night train up so we could sleep and arrive fresh. I love the bunk beds!
Arrived in the morning and downed some breakfast, coffee, and off we went. Beautiful fall colors and the weather was a mix of cloudy, sunny, hot and cold. Clothes came off and clothes were put back on… Distance hiked 16km.
We stayed at Sylarna Fjällstation the first night. We have stayed there before and had pre-booked their dinner buffet. Pretty great views out of the cabin when eating and relaxing. Oh, and they have a sauna too so we hit that before passing out.
Next morning we had their breakfast buffet and the waffles were soooo good!
Then off hiking to Norway. We were told that we should’ve collected a key to the cabin in Norway since there would be no staff there at this time of the year. The cabins on the Swedish side should have them too, but this one was out. We emailed the support where we made our reservation and hoped there would be other people booked at the location that could let us in. One key works at all the cabins in all of Norway. Fingers crossed and off we went… Ice on the water in the morning, but the sun was warm…
Wohooo, finally reached the border to Norway. There was only this fence and a gate that you opened and tied closed. Hello Norway!
There was this tiny hut and we decided to take a coffee & snack break. After all, we reached Norway. Pretty cool…
While taking a break, we also had phone reception so we decided it was best to call about our reservation. Didn’t tempt us too much to hike another 10km and then be locked outside with no proper gear. The lady said there were no other reservations made, so there was a pretty big chance we’d not be able to get in. We decided it was best to turn around and alter our planned route. And back to Sweden we hiked…
A bit of a #fail, but who cares when you got beautiful landscapes, sun, champagne and coffee. My whole family has always been able to nap whenever and wherever. My sister proving it by falling asleep on a pile of rocks hahahaaa…. Distance hiked 16km.
We spent another night at Sylarna Fjällstation. Next morning there was a bunch of reindeers right outside the window while we were eating breakfast. Spotting a white reindeer is supposed to mean luck 🙂
We then took off towards Blåhammaren Fjällstation.
It’s a 19km hike and the last part is all uphill. It feels pretty good when you finally reach the cabin. And to know you have a 3-course dinner booked 🙂 But first some beer and a sauna.
The dinner was super good and the main course was reindeer. I was so hungry I didn’t even have time to take a pic of the food hahahaa…
Pretty much put my head on the pillow and slept like 5 seconds later. The last day we hiked back to Storulvåns Fjällstation (12km) where you take the bus to the train station. We had booked the night train again. Arrived back in Stockholm at 5am the next morning.
Didn’t have time for much more than eating some meatballs and hanging out with friends and family before it was time to head back to Mexico. Until next time Sweden!
Been working my ass off since I got back to Mexico. Got a couple of friends over from the US now too and we’re shooting a lot of stuff for an upcoming NFT project. All that for the next post. Considering hitting the gym now after a couple of night of debauchery 🙂 Then more shooting and dinner later. What are you up to this weekend? Oh, if you need a great series to watch, check out Taboo with Tom Hardy. Pretty dark & gory…
Last weekend I walked to Polanco and strolled around. This month they’re celebrating Independence Day in Mexico. What I love about Mexico and Mexicans is that they take celebrations seriously. There are flags and decorations everywhere here now. They had a huge parade with cars that people had tuned up or modified. Most of the cars were carrying flags or sombreros. They were revving their engines and people were lining the streets to watch. I was too impressed and forgot to snap more pics 🙁
Even after having lived here for a year I still discover new places. Walked by this bird sanctuary and went inside. One of my biggest dreams would be to be able to talk to animals. I have tried, believe me. Especially when tripping in nature thinking I have more brain capacity and that I should be able to attract animals. So far no luck. I tried with the parrot on the bench, but he didn’t give a shit about me hahahaaa…
I was also prepping for my birthday coming up next week…
Finally got a table at Masala & Maiz. It’s a Mexican/Indian fusion restaurant and super popular. Someone told me that they been asked to be featured in a book about the 50 best restaurants in Mexico and they declined. They just didn’t want the attention and they’re already fully booked. AND the food was supergood. Also drank some organic wine that’s been processed naturally and tasted more like cider without the carbonation.
Sabrina came over and we had some fun 🙂 Took her and her husband to my favorite taco stand around the corner for some fancy dining 🙂 There was a constant stream of people coming and asking for a photo with her.
Went to a birthday party…
Got new flashy claws…
Not sure what I’ll do for my birthday yet, but I have some ideas. The next day I’m flying to Sweden to celebrate some more. My nephew has his birthday the same day as me and a friend is having a huge birthday party as well.
That is all 🙂 Gonna head out for some coffee now and read. Almost done with the 3rd book of ‘Dungeon Crawler Carl’… If you have good reading recommendations, please write a comment. Always looking for good new reads!
I’ll leave you with this video which I think is pretty funny…
